Wednesday, January 28, 2009

She's Back...

Long ago there was a girl who loved to blog about the quirky instances that provided flair in the narritive of her life. She would bitch about her obsession with food, men, sex, the choices made from all three and her dramatic alter ego played into them. Some would say she used her blog as a way to keep situations from blowing out of proportion. She would say it just her way of avoiding psychothreapy.

In this two year stint, the more situations in life occured, the more she would blog. From the major delays cause by Washington DC's Metro Rail to the day to day office politics back to issues with her favorite playmate, Miss Kitty. Her favorite topic would be her dealing with a person she grew to love and discovered how hard it is to love someone who doesn't love hard in return. Those who read the blog pointed this out but as blind and deafing as love is, her ears and heart were not receptive to their opinions.

At times she put her wishes for love on the back bunner and delt with her biggest adversary, self image. Some of the opinions of readers and revelations through writing helped her fanaggle her way through some of her biggest roadblocks in life.

Some during her blogging period, life's little enquities and self critiziting got the best of her. She thought that blogging caused some of the drama but after taking a two year hiatus she discovered that drama blog wasn't the issue but the actual drama. Although some of the drama was at no fault of her own, while a portion was caused by the choices she made. It took a simple moment (and time to bounce on padded walls) to make her realize the decisions made was not only making the her life's journey rocky but overshadowing her, in which she or her alter ego could not accept.

It took a couple months for her to rearrange and change some of the decisions made. She traveled and learned some new things. Love was lost and reagined. Some situations changed for the better and worse. In all, she has made the decision to do whats best for her and those who she loves.

As she reflects and keeps mentioning herself in the third person, she remembers the number one reason she started blogging in the first place and says, "I'm back bitches"

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